There are so many times that we all wish we could see past the moment we are in. To see what God has in store for us, to know if we are doing the right thing. But, the truth is - if we could see what he had in store for us, what would we do with it? Would we still do the right thing? I don't know.
I do know, that God chose me. He CHOSE me to embark on this Journey because He knew I could sustain it for the haul. I am certain of this. There are so many days that I just want to throw in the towel. To be done. To move on. But, I can't. I know that's not what I'm supposed to do. There are so many days that I wonder. I wonder when is my time coming? I don't know. But, I do know that it will come - and when it does it will be glorious.
I believe that God has a bigger picture planned for me than I can see and plan for. Sometimes, it's not so much that I want to see the bigger picture, more so than I want to know what I need to plan for. Some people that know me might laugh at this - but the truth is, I'm a planner. I want to know what I'm going to need, what I'm going to wear, and how I'm going to act. Am I going to be a wallflower and hide, or will I be able to be someone that isn't a shy one. But, the truth is, there are somethings that I just can't plan for. I must TRUST. I must lean on the Lord and know that He will carry me through. I don't know what my time frame is, I don't know when my "when" is. But, I know that I must TRUST. I must TRUST in the Lord.
If I were to take a snapshot of my life, and the circumstances going on - there isn't much hope.
Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." This is where my hope is. HE is working. HE is working for me, and my situation, and the Glory will be revealed to me in time - Gods time.
Blessings.
this post is so encouraging to me right now. it helps to have someone who is going through this right now give me some perspective. i know this in my head, and there are many times i cling to it, but there are hard moments when i just feel like this will never end. life will never get better. thank you for writing and being so honest.
ReplyDelete"There are so many days that I just want to throw in the towel. To be done. To move on. But, I can't." That is exactly how I feel! I know this is what God has chosen for me to do, but sometimes I just don't think I can go on for another minute. Just know that people you don't even know are keeping you in their prayers. Keep TRUSTING, because He is working.
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