9 Years

Nine years ago today, I was married to the man I thought I'd spend my life with. I knew it would be a struggle, but never did I imagine the man that couldn't get his fill of looking at me would be the one to file divorce papers.

Jesus is my light - He is the one that is my strength to keep me going. When I think of the strength and His light within me, I think in colors. White and yellow. I just thought of it - it's acutally the colors of on of my favorite spring flowers, Daffodils. They are one of the first flowers in the north to emerge from the cold ground in the spring.

Nine years ago, it was a cold day - the temperature had plummeted, it was -8 degrees, and flurrying on and off. The day had started out sunny and cold, but changed to flurries. For a day that a zillion things could have gone wrong, there was only one that sticks out. Jim had stepped into his tux pants, and ripped the seam at the bottom. No biggy. Someone contacted the rental place, and they brought a replacement over. The other option was to duct tape it (on the inside, or staple it). It all worked out.

But, but the time that day finally arrived, I was ready to move on from planning the wedding and get on to the marriage part. It was wonderful to proclaim my intent to love, honor and cherish him in front of God, family, and friends; but I was ready to move on from planning this one day to being married.

I always knew we'd have struggles, but I always thought we'd work through them. God isn't done. I'm struggling to wrap my mind around some things today. But, I also know that there are somethings that I don't have to wrap my head around. God is wrapping his arms around me, and working things out. I have to find a way to keep moving forward.

I want to leave you with a recording of an awesome song, sang by 3 kids. Origianlly, it's a Chris Tomlin song, and he does it very well. But the voices of these 3 kids - wow. Blows me away.



I'm sorry about the rambling post. I'm feeling all over the board today. Blessings all.